Being a mom sometimes sucks.

Tomorrow is my birthday but we won't be celebrating -- my choice though. Usually we take the entire family out to celebrate b-days at the restaurant of their choice. Ash's b-day was Friday so we took her, her mom, our three (Z doesn't count yet) and her friend out. Well, to take me out means me paying and that's not an option. Our account barely is going to pay bills so no money for mommy's dinner. I told Charley I really didn't want to just do a bbq at home on Tuesday because that's kinda lame. . .I would just rather make dinner and enjoy my family.

I also sent him a text that I did not want him to get me a present. . .again it would come out of our joint account and we can't spend any of whats in there. . .bills only. I don't want him to use a credit card since we are trying to pay them down, and having too high credit card bills is why we are in this situation in the first place.

My dad sent me a hundred dollars to enjoy by b-day, this is going to groceries this week. Sigh.

After fathers day and Ash's b-day, I am broke. So, the easiest sacrifice to make is going to be my birthday costs. I will be sad I know but that is the joy of being a mom.

Its not about the money or things, I just want to enjoy my family and relax some.

Besides, that's the horrible thing about my b-day. Ages b-day is May 12, Tiff May 23, Ash June 19,and then Father's Day so we are always broke by my b-day.

Oh well. Maybe I can celebrate later.